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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Posted at 10:50 am by thequeen
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Monday, August 22, 2005
HE AINT HEAVY, HES MY BROTHER
when these walls only contain pandemonium and unsoundness,
i thank god for you .
theres no better one i cld ever ask for .
only magnified by the brothers to sisters i come across ;
i cringe and wish i cld undo the things i did before .
for throwin away your stuffed ninja
for throwin crayons at you
for strikin you on the face
i didnt know the pest i knew before
wld grow up to be
the sanekeeper i see today .
for taking over when i dont feel like bein a gd daughter .
for bein everythin an older brother wld be, when in pt of fact, youre younger
for all the lunches you buy me, for tellin me when im out of line,
for sacrificing the damn discman so i can take it to work
when i know you never go anywhere without your music .
trivial .
but its the small things
that keeps me goin .
from throwin in the towel .
there might be 3 kids in this household .
but she'll never take anyone's place .
theres only one brother for me .
im proud of you .
Posted at 07:15 am by thequeen
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
for refusal to communicate
with anyone online, offline
and anywhere else possible,
i say
dont want your hand
this time, i'll save myself
and no, i dont care
if you're soft butch or hard butch
or fuckin gay .
it doesnt matter .
label and gender does not faze me anymore .
but the point is ,
im not interested in being one of two .
because last nite ,
in my almost drunken stupor
after bumpin into her ,
i made a decision .
gettin into a rs is like settin a bloody mousetrap .
once it snaps, you're caught forever .
and i, of all ppl, shld know ,
emotional scars run deep, and never go away .
the memory of 4 still haunt me .
(i never gave much fuck bout the other 3)
like i thought i was over her .
but when i saw her, i had the instant urge
to go mad, scream, shout, slap myself
and ram head-on with everyone who didnt stay clear .
no more relationships for me .
and no more butches for me .
till im sure the bastard i go out with is the one i marry .
if i ever .
so im sorry, dont bother me .
Posted at 11:59 am by thequeen
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crowd controllin rocks .
i get paid for standin lookin oh so cool
occasionally answerin visitors' moronic enquiries
AND i get to look at cutesycutesy toddlers
PLUS hothot angmoh kias .
man, this is the life .
the only shit outta it is ,
EVERYBODY goes to sentosa
and you dont know who you're gonna bump into .
for a full 15 mins i was at fountain garden
i didnt realise joyene was barely 5 damn metres away .
shitty .
till i felt someone starin at me
so i fuckin turned and SURPRISE, NORA .
theres your ex gf lookin at you .
smiling like she forgot what she did to you
in fuckin march 2005 .
and the second you realise who the person was
(after staring at her for 5 fuckin seconds)
you take to your heels, do an about-turn
and walk away .
(wrong, because THATS your assigned spot in the first damn place)
zero professionalism, nora .
grow up grow up grow up .
the next time it happens
(tho im hopin not, duh)
I WILL SMILE LIKE I MEAN IT .
ho ho .
you fuckin actress you .
Posted at 01:42 am by thequeen
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
nora is a minahcowboy .
and today, minahcowboy is a gardener .
in floral blue .
oooh hellooooo sentosa motherfuckas .
cant wait to meeeet yooo alll .
peace .
no, seriously .
Posted at 12:43 pm by thequeen
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
STAY WHERE YOU BELONG - in my memory
i stopped pondering what went wrong .
i stopped wishing you'd come back before long .
simply said ,
i stopped giving a damn, george .
I ACCEPT IT .
AND IM GETTIN OVER IT .
no need for that sms .
any idiot would know,
i understand simple english
perfectly well .
i didnt want us to end up this way .
i didnt want us to end up
HATING EACH OTHER .
i dont want to hate you, george .
im SICK of hating ppl i used to love .
please dont make me hate you .
Posted at 07:46 pm by thequeen
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- i will not pretend to be sane .
- i will not be content with normalcy .
- i will not restrain if i feel like blowin up/breakin down .
- i am entitled to all the madness and illogicality in this fuckin universe .
- i will not let what george said, fuckin affect me .
- i will sleep arnd .
amen .
Posted at 04:32 pm by thequeen
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
out of a straight relationship, into the arms of a lesbian fan .
save this poor wretched soul, amen .
Posted at 10:49 pm by thequeen
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someone told me,
"you go through more than others, so you'll learn and know MORE than them.."
and my question is,
WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO KNOW MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE ?
WHY ?
Posted at 07:13 pm by thequeen
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I DONT WANNA LIVE ANYMORE
feel like i cld NOT stop cryin till the end of the world .
how much more do you think i can take ?
Posted at 10:29 am by thequeen
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